cinderella has nothing on me

my life is no fairy tale i wasnt fair skinned and naturally beautiful completely opposite actually even up until i graduated high school i was made fun of called names made fun of becausec of my looks from my nose,to my hair cut,to my clothes,my weight,who i was dating ,even down to being to being to broke to buy lunch sometimes i was quite at first then i became loud and annoyed at those who thought it was ok to mentally torture




someone i was anorexic self conscious ,i continually got into relationship that wernt good for the simple fact that i wanted to feel loved dont get me wrong i dated a couple good guys in between the assholes,jerks,control freaks,and the were dating but dont tell anyone guys,i had friends who would spill my secrets if i dared pissed them off,i had friends who the minute i walked out the room talked shit about me heck i even had friends who knew i liked a guy and made out with him in front of me ,but i also had friends that till this day no madder what spats we have been through are still there for me at the drop if a hat and i wouldnt trade them for the world ,iv been through alot of things other people havnt and some 

of those things i dont talk about but even though iv been through hell i have come out the other side a better person because i know truly being loved is like in spite of how emotionally damaged i am i have found someone who has been through hell as well and sees the good in me and looks past the bad even when  ts really hard to do so i found that person that within weeks of just knowing each other you know you will fight till the end of time for them and to be with them i know life isnt like movies theres no for sure happy ending theres no for sure that you will grow old together and dying in your true loves srms but i know that the time i do have with that person is never a waste,a mistake,its my dream life i may not be rich i may survive sometimes paycheck to paycheck but i have everything i need and want in my life i have a man who wants to marry me even after all the impossible times we have




been through i have a daughter who looks at me when i get home like im the best person shes seen all day i have waited 3 years to be able to marry him and i would wait the rest of my life if i had to because he has given me everything i never thought i deserved ,calling myself his wife will be a dream come true and an honor they say never say never but i can swear on a bible that i will never hurt him,cheat on him,or use our child against him because i have had all of those things happen to me to and knowing what it feels like i could never put someone i love through that pain .

11 years and we will never be the same

today marks 11 years to the day that our country was forever changed no one knew 11 years ago that this morning would change millions of lives not just those who died in the planes and the towers but the thousands of soldiers who signed up to serve a country that they saw being violated right in front of them the country they had been raised to be so proud of that for so long seemed invincible against others,not since pearl harbor had our country been so caught off guard to what was with out a doubt an act of terrorism.in the last 11 years so much has changed for a country that i my self had once thought was untouchable we have lost so many in so many ways ,because of this war soldiers come home no longer themselves a part of them is left overseas so many innocent young people have seen to much of the worlds true evils and have never been the same so many husbands and fathers,mothers and wives have seen best friends die in front of them and will never be the father and loving husbands,and wives they were when they left,but some gave all and will never return at all,for those who gave it all we are for ever thankful to them and their family's not all of us can know what its like to lose some one you love,because they didn't have to protect us,and are way of life but they did ,they fought in a land they didn't know so that there would be no need to fight here on our homeland,a homeland that has already seen so much horror ,the war may be over but our country and its people will never be the same we will never take lightly to threats and we will never back down we will forever be on our guard so that a day like September,11th will never happen again . so on this day 11 year later i give thanks to those in flight 93,the firefighters,in ny and every person who gave their lives that fateful day and the days following and i want to also give thanks to the soldiers who have given their lives in the fight against terrorism and continue to do so everyday ,thank you and i am forever grateful.