my life is no fairy tale i wasnt fair skinned and naturally beautiful completely opposite actually even up until i graduated high school i was made fun of called names made fun of becausec of my looks from my nose,to my hair cut,to my clothes,my weight,who i was dating ,even down to being to being to broke to buy lunch sometimes i was quite at first then i became loud and annoyed at those who thought it was ok to mentally torture
someone i was anorexic self conscious ,i continually got into relationship that wernt good for the simple fact that i wanted to feel loved dont get me wrong i dated a couple good guys in between the assholes,jerks,control freaks,and the were dating but dont tell anyone guys,i had friends who would spill my secrets if i dared pissed them off,i had friends who the minute i walked out the room talked shit about me heck i even had friends who knew i liked a guy and made out with him in front of me ,but i also had friends that till this day no madder what spats we have been through are still there for me at the drop if a hat and i wouldnt trade them for the world ,iv been through alot of things other people havnt and some 
of those things i dont talk about but even though iv been through hell i have come out the other side a better person because i know truly being loved is like in spite of how emotionally damaged i am i have found someone who has been through hell as well and sees the good in me and looks past the bad even when ts really hard to do so i found that person that within weeks of just knowing each other you know you will fight till the end of time for them and to be with them i know life isnt like movies theres no for sure happy ending theres no for sure that you will grow old together and dying in your true loves srms but i know that the time i do have with that person is never a waste,a mistake,its my dream life i may not be rich i may survive sometimes paycheck to paycheck but i have everything i need and want in my life i have a man who wants to marry me even after all the impossible times we have
been through i have a daughter who looks at me when i get home like im the best person shes seen all day i have waited 3 years to be able to marry him and i would wait the rest of my life if i had to because he has given me everything i never thought i deserved ,calling myself his wife will be a dream come true and an honor they say never say never but i can swear on a bible that i will never hurt him,cheat on him,or use our child against him because i have had all of those things happen to me to and knowing what it feels like i could never put someone i love through that pain .
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