love and what it means to me now

as i sit here writing this i listen to a song that a couple years ago would have reminded me of hurt and heartache and even make me cry on a bad day but now its just a good song by a good band. it is very hard for me to get to that point with a song that before had so much meaning,songs have a very special meanings to me i have a playlist of songs that describe my whole teenage life and then some . i realize that as my life continues in the great direction that it is i realize that what was in my past is there for a reason because i could never be this happy if i was in any of the relationship i used to be in mainly the one that for so long i compared others to the one that looking back now on kept me held down basically allowing my self to be hurt over and over ,i now see that person who WAS a big part of my life as just another person no one who could ever make me rethink my life now just another person i know i can even find for my self being happy for this person as they start their  own life , because i have at this point in my life found the person who i would cross the world for the person who i would do anything for even if it meant packing up and leaving on a minutes notice because life without him seems like a waste of time and energy ,without him i could never push myself to do half the things i have ,he see's me at my worst and still looks at me like im a super model even when that's the last thing i could see my self as,he is the person who despite what others may say i can see the real him the real father and husband who would do anything and give anything for his family and i couldnt ask for anything better then him . love to me now is being in his arms and knowing that im the only one he wants and knowing that i have something no one else has ,his heart and he has mine .i could never have imagined that i could have such a great life but i do . i love you with all my heart Anthony Michael Degel